Now then realized how fake things can make a person feels.It can make people feel so sick and tired of seeing and pretending it, so helpless and insecure of knowing it, well, just hated it.
When you thinking friendship is real, concern is real, importance is real and yet you didn't feel it that way in heart, that's all fake!
Sometimes it's being too foolish to have a thought for others, and neglect about your own feeling at
all time.
What is the worst stage of being emotional?
For me, It's when Alcohol wasn't anymore a choice that you wish you could turn to, best friend wasn't the one you wish you could speak to, and your own room wasn't the place you wish you could hide at.
I cant find myself even in the middle of the brightness, cant figure out about what am I doing all this while, no true or false, no right or wrong, simply because I'm
lost!
Sometimes, I just hated myself, why should I bother and think so much, worrying and looking into thing so much, everything and wonder just a little bit lesser, will really make my life easier.
I have no directions ahead, no solutions left.
当我走到累的时候,只想停下脚步歇息, 不想在受了重伤之后,才来说后悔莫及...
我已习惯失去自信,失去信心,失去相信的勇气,失去寻找的耐力, 失去渴望的能力..
我很累了，累坏了，累得没有勇气..再去面对一切。。。
Emptiness Enlarger, Emotional Endures.
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Wednesday, February 10, 2010