The most painful thing wasn't that you didn't know anything, instead, you see everything too clearly.
Its hurts, but at least you know.
However, sometimes you wished that you will never know.
Finally understand that, why drunk, why music, why emo?
Once, I thought I was strong, kept trying to be, who knows, at the end of the day, I realized that,
I am the weakest one.I cant pretend anymore, didn't ever give up, I just need a break, from all those restless day, stressful mind, messy world, unforgiven sins, and,
those hopes that I believe.After so many years and things passed, I have to admit that,
I've been defeated, by
the world,
the facts,
the people,
and myself!
Finally really understand what's the feeling of
drying, falling, losing & bleeding.The wound wasn't been seen, but its hurts, deep in the heart!
Once I thought it was useless to being emo, until now, I knew it's true.
However, its take courage to allow yourself to face your
real emotions.
I never encourage anyone to being emotional, but, there will always time, when you felt that,
you are all alone!Drowsing in all those emotional music, give me a scene of
belonging.I've seen many people in my mind, whereby those who have strong faith in their life.
But I realized that, I cant see myself!
Where am I?
I am lost, long ago, and became someone who I didn't know..
Being positive, negative, cheerful, emo, believe in faith, or dead? -,-
I admit that I've been defeated..
What I need is just a moment of silent..
Bye~
Hey, you know what? I don even have the guts to post this out when I had finished writing it..
Poor me.
(back to the top.)
Drowsing, facing?
Friday, February 5, 2010